When I look into your graceful green eyes.
I cannot bare to hide all my sorrow, all my rage.
Never can I undo or settle all the lies.
Yet if given the chance I could at least try.
Some consider life free, but to me it's a cage.
For without you, this life is truly unbearable.
I didn't even have the chance to say goodbye.
There can be no redemption, for I'm forsaken.
Before it was great, now it's all terrible.
In my mind it keeps happening again and again.
When you died, also my soul was painfully taken.
If only there were possibly another way.
To not let your death be in vain.
Yet there are only inner demons to slay.
Everyday I try to find another way to escape.
Am I wise enough to ever let you go?
In my mind an idea starts to take shape.
To go back and end it at hello.
Never let it happen, to finally save you.
It's the only way, where the past has not yet become.
Finally and absolutely making my reality untrue.
Can I exist knowing such a thing could have been?
While always on the outside looking in.
Death come claim your prize, for now I succumb.
My soul, my life, as I'm ready for the end.
That's the price to pay, to trade one life for another.
Such is the will of life to always transcend.

Wow!

Thanks...
Or are you amazed by such insanity?

I like it I really do.

Considering what actually inspired it I can understand. With such a thing as that it can never truly leave your mind, heart and soul. But try not to let it dominate your mind, heart and soul.

True.

Such a thing can easily consume someone entirely, as it is a very hard thing to subdue. An eternal battle, but subdue is all one can ever hope to achieve. For it shall always remain there lurking beneath the surface, and everyday awaiting it's chance to finally appear in totality..

Just know that if she truely loved you she would never want you to be tormented enternally. There is no blame and hate and revenge where she is. Try not to place too much upon yourself that she wouldn't place upon you herself.